The Green Abbey
By salmon wisdom I am ever returning
along the avenue of gothic oaks
towards the white
broken clock tower
above the bolted coach house.
Perambulating about this accumulation of architecture,
The sandstone hourglass
of my memory mansion,
I visit myself.
The crackle of gravel,
My favourite track
Of the old record office
The familiar groove spiralling inward.
Into the dog-eared garden,
Passed the gravestones of pets,
The ghost of my hound guiding,
Playing with me still in his paradise.
So many times he brought me here,
teaching me to follow my instincts,
to listen to nature,
nurturing my fledging wild self –
the boy-puppy who was to become a wolf.
Here I tasted the solace of wilderness
for the pain of passion,
of first and lost loves,
of alienation and aloneness,
finding solitude but unable to share its bliss.
In my make-believe world
I found my beloved,
hide and seek playmates in passers-by,
A Jack-in-the-Green without knowing why.
In the nursery of my imagination
I learnt the alphabet of trees,
nick-naming them octopus, monkey, heart, thumping, rocket –
an Adam in his Eden.
By a broken-mawed pond I cast
A Baba Yaga in a black-bellied hut.
And walking with my dad at night
Gypsy lights winked in the Spinney
And a grey lady glided in the dreaming –
A queen of stone
Or phantom of a nun,
Sisters who left a legacy of peace
As they paced their sanctuary,
Every step a silent prayer.
And here I repair
When I weary of the race,
A pilgrim thirsting
For their healing grace –
The grail of renewal
That restores my wasteland
With the memory of summer,
Of sun-fat days of timeless youth,
Of picnics for virgin palates,
Of blind kisses under staring skies,
And shadow-dancing by champagne moons.
Déjà vu doppelganger.
I watch the rough edits playback.
Hindsight redeems this story
As past and future rendezvous
Beneath the trysting tree.
Here, where goddesses of fish and cat
Lured from their walled fastnesses,
I gleaned an inkling of their muse.
And in the grove of my mother and father
I silently communed –
Tall and strong, how they watched me grow,
Their heartwood my axis mundi,
The spine of my history.
O the oaks of my arcadia,
Archive of my life,
Endure always,
Keep the battling world at bay.
As in amber be the bowers of blessed Delapre.
by Kevin Manwaring 1999
(illustrates how important Delape Abbey is to someone who grew up there)